NE India pilgrimage: Day 0
After my first experience on an aeroplane, I've found flights rather boring. A 1-hour flight is quite ideal in that before you get through your refreshments slowly and read some papers, you are set for landing.
But it was a 2-hour flight from Chennai to Kolkata that I was onto, and I anticipated a boring 1-hour on the flight. It was even worse with the evening sun on my window and I, trying my best to eat slowly, finished my plate within an hour and I was left with nothing to do.
After idling for sometime, I witnessed one of the best views one could ever see on a flight. From my window, I could see the evening orange sun peeking from behind the clouds and setting out beams of rays like that you experience in a jungle, when you see the sun through the trees. The rest of the flight passed away in a flash and by the time the plane landed at the kolkata airport, it was 7 PM and well into the night.
I was all in anticipation of the trip to mountains in the north-east part of India. The sight of the sinking sun raised my spirits in a rather dull life that I am living now.
I was planning to blog the events starting from day 1 of the trip but the sunset was too good to be left out and I chronicled it as Day 0!
What the author thinks.....
My end-sems get over tomorrow, and theres a special air on these days. You start thinking about various things.
In my first year, even a week before end-sems, I used to start thinking about home. Eating my mother's dosas and her lovely combination of spices, my friends back at home, my little sister, the smell of sand that comes after rain, the symbol of peace.
Come my second year, I used to have similar feelings but it comes to me during the course of end-sems, not a week before.....
Come my third year, I think about the stupid internship that I have at IMSc and wonder why all this formality?, why this engineering course?, why IIT?, why existence? Philosophical questions such as this used to bother me all the time.
Come my fourth year(that is, NOW), I do not think of home. I am not thinking about the cute little baby that my sister-in-law gave birth to. I am not thinking about the cute little baby that is going to come out in November from my sister's womb. I am not thinking of my DDP with my prof. I sit in front of the damn computer, wasting all my time surfing over loads of useless stuff on the internet. I dont chat with friends. Still, I manage to waste time on the computer. At least during the courses, you think of the courses (maybe negative feelings but hell, feelings nonetheless). Now that my exam gets over tomorrow, there is a feeling of EMPTINESS.
My heart is totally EMPTY. I am void of any feelings now. I am not even thinking about the beautiful mountains of Darjeeling which I would be visiting in a few days time. What has happened to me? Am I incapable of reacting to events around me? Do you need to react to everything that happens around you? Do you need to express your love towards other people to show them that you actually care?
Tomorrow is my birthday and my mother talks to me over the phone. That fails to create any excitement in me. I consider birthday as any other day, except that the people who care for you want to show that they care for you by giving you presents, cards, taking you outside to eat. Do I deserve this? I definitely dont mind the perks that come along my way, but I dont want presents or cards from somebody to remind me that there are people who care for me. Does it show that they think I dont care about them?
Hell, I've asked too many questions. I rather stop now.
